Over the last probably 3 weeks I have had some stuff stirring in my heart. One of the things that I have come to realize at men’s group is as much as I have struggled with lust it pales in comparison to my struggles of walking in judgment. What I mean by that is I will occasionally look at porn. The question is always why did you do that? What was the trigger? Why did you feel you had to go down that road? Reality is many times I have those answers but sometimes I don’t. When it comes to judgement I do that every single day without question. Sometimes I don’t even realize I’m doing it until it’s too late. But rarely do I get the question what was the trigger? Why did you feel you had to go down that road? Why did you feel you had to judge that person? I don’t get those questions
I think judging people, sometimes ……. it’s fun to do. Like walking around in Walmart and looking at it every single person and you think that you know their story or why they are dressed the way they are. Jesus said judge not lest ye be judged more harshly. When someone knows they’re being judged they will fire back and judge you back most likely and even in a meaner since. And then you become angrier and actually judge yourself for judging that person, so they can judge you back it’s like a vicious circle it’s like running in that stupid hamster cage.
I have had several instances over the last 3 or 4 weeks where the Judgment had taken root and one morning I felt like I heard Holy Spirit say take the high road. I had written a 5-star review for a place where my wife and I stayed. Halfway through the review though I added some critique and suggested a policy change. I sent it to the owner to let him review it before I posted it online. Basically, asking him for his thoughts. I didn’t hear from him for 3 or 4 days. All kinds of thoughts were running through my mind about why they did what they did, and why he hadn’t responded. The truth is the reason he didn’t respond is because the day I sent the email he buried his dad. When he finally got around to responding. He said he was with his mom over the last week who had pneumonia. Who was so sick she couldn’t even go to her husband’s own funeral. Well let’s just say I felt like an ass all because I walked in judgement.
He wrote me a very nice email and was very grateful for what I have written was very grateful for the review that I had posted online about his business – I left off the critique and suggested policy change. And then he credited me back $200. I wasn’t asking for any money back but because I took the high road God was smiling. I am so glad that I chose to listen and some of the things that I said to him ministered to him which was important.
14 And it shall be said,
“Build up, build up, prepare the way,
remove every obstruction from my people’s way.”
In my email responses to him this is what I did. I built him up the Lord prepared his way and the judgment was the obstruction
16 For I will not contend forever,
nor will I always be angry;
for the spirit would grow faint before me,
and the breath of life that I made.
When I read this scripture I honestly feel that I’m Not Angry Anymore. Because while I was this is exactly what I felt was going on is that his Spirit was going to faint before me. This anger came from the judgment
18 I have seen his ways, but I will heal him;
I will lead him and restore comfort to him and his mourners,
When I read this scripture, I feel like I’ve been healed.
19 creating the fruit of the lips.
Peace, peace, to the far and to the near,” says the Lord,
“and I will heal him.
I will walk in peace today.