My cell phone died

Without going into a lot of details I had a very close friend yesterday snap at me when I said, “I don’t think that’s what he’s saying there.” (we were talking about a message on youtube that I had sent him) let’s just say I haven’t had somebody talk to me in that tone in a very long time. It was hurtful for sure. I’m not sure if this person’s dog got run over or he had just received some bad news. But obviously, something was wrong. But I reacted anyway. I shut down, my answers became very short, and we ended the conversation. I got off the phone thinking, “What just happened?”

Needless to say, I was driving down the road listening to a message when my phone died. I had about 40 minutes to my next destination. It was a very awkward silence, and so I thought about that incident earlier.

Lord, why did I react that way? Why did it hurt me so much. He took me all the way back to when my first wife told me that she would punch me if I ever accused her of having an affair. I knew she was having an affair I had proof. I remember going to my room and just crying. I’m not sure exactly what belief I wrote on my heart that day, but you know there’s something there, so I will be doing some more digging.

Then it dawned on me I hadn’t prayed about this so I did. short and to the point

I prayed, Lord, thank you for this day. Thank you that I get to live this life that you purchased for me. Thank you that you live inside of me, and I don’t have to have people to love me and like me so I can feel better about myself. I am grateful to be called your son. Amen

I forgave, I got peace, I went into a very important meeting and nobody even knew that I had been hurting.

I have total peace in my heart. I will talk to him this morning.

I don’t wake up in the morning for you to love me so I can feel better about myself. 

Yesterday morning may have been rough, but it was a great day!

1 John 1:5 (ESV)
5 This is the message we have heard from him and proclaim to you that God is light, and in him is no darkness at all.

There is no darkness in me and there is no darkness in you.

Let the light in Kari Jobe