Have been having a lot going on in my mind over the last 8 weeks. People can tell you what’s wrong with you all day long but until Holy Spirit actually reveals it to you personally it usually Does not Carry much weight. There always seems to be a part that doesn’t want to believe it because you are telling me that.
Have been having a lot of sleepless Nights so I had been getting into my heart zone alot sometimes on purpose sometimes not.🙂
Last night I don’t know 3:00 in the morning out of the blue Holy Spirit brings this scripture to me.
Proverbs 12:10 (ESV) 10 Whoever is righteous has regard for the life of his beast,
but the mercy of the wicked is cruel. My daughters dog has mannerisms and habits that I do not like. You can say I give the dog the cold shoulder. Last night I was told that you are making the dog afraid of you. Of course my prideful self said no I’m not. Instantly I heard Holy Spirit say “yes you are.”
He also brought a conversation back to me that I had with my mentor from about 12 years ago.
My mentor told me this. ” When you bless my kids you bless me.”
A little back story, my bonus daughter and her dog had been living with us for the last 2 months So she can get back on her feet. The back story to that is irrelevant.
It has been very hard on me and the reason it has been hard on me Is because of my selfishness. The Lord once again pointed this out to me, he brought me to this passage.
Anyone read James lately?
James 3:16 (ESV) 16 For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there will be disorder and every vile practice.
I have been down this jealousy road before with my bonus children.
I can remember the week up to the day she moved in telling myself that I’m not gonna go back to my old ways when she gets here. That is where the phrase when does a deceived person know they are deceived. I was kinda like the frog put in the pot of water and the heat slowly turned up until it boiled to death. I started allowing old behaviors and habits creep back in and not even realizing that’s what was happening.
I can say with 100% certainty that I have created my own pain and now that Holy Spirit has revealed all this to me The ball is now in my court.
I will finish up with this because I thought this was very powerful after I read that passage in James I continue to read a little further. I came to this promise that I thought was very powerful.
James 3:18 (ESV) 18 And a harvest of righteousness is sown in peace by those who make peace.
That is who I am.