Had surgery Tuesday December 6th. It appears one of the side effects that I received from the surgery was having a short fuse or should I say I chose to have a short fuse. For sure it’s not something that I am proud of and it has caused some problems. It has also revealed areas of my life that still need work. Go figure.
Has anyone read James lately?
James 1.19-20 know this, my beloved brothers let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger, for the anger of a man does not produce the righteousness of God. ESV
James 1.19-20 Consequently, my beloved brethren, (when you are faced with temptation and contradiction) ponder the Word that reveals your true origin, do not ponder the problem; that is how frustration is conceived. Rather remain silent than to give anger your voice. (Quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger.) 20 Anger distorts the picture and brings no credit to compliment God’s righteousness.
It is very hard to Feel righteous when you’re angry. I love how the mirror version of James suggests to ponder the word that reveals your true origin do not ponder the problem.
In other words what are you gonna meditate on ? The word or the problem? I was not meditating on righteousness that is for sure , I was meditating on selfishness.
I woke last night about 2:00 in the morning to some very intense pain in my shoulder. I thought to myself what have I done? I really felt like I was meditating on the pain more than anything. I got up moved to a different chair and the pain would not go away. Then I moved to the living room and set up on the couch and started to meditate. Also took 2 pain pills. I remember when the 30 minutes of bonus music was over the pain was gone. I remember thinking Jesus took this pain for me or did the drugs just kick in.
Have a Godfidence day