I had a rough day yesterday.
James 3.16 An environment of envy and rivalry is conducive to confusion and disorder and all kinds of worthless pursuits. The Mirror
James 3:16 For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there is disorder [unrest, rebellion] and every evil thing and morally degrading practice. Amp.
Nothing describes my day better than this.
My day …. my routine got interrupted.
I wrote the other day about the Lord saying. “give me back my stuff!”
I also wrote the other day that Jesus is in every circumstance. So needless to say, this morning the Lord showed me that I chose to not look for Jesus in the circumstances. That made me feel horrible.
The Lord showed me through a friend of mine this morning that yesterday was about the other person and him needing to be around people that he is safe with.
I chose to let my selfishness and jealousy get in the way of doing the right thing and being there for him.
I am amazed at how I will allow myself to get jacked up like that and before I know it I have falling down the 50 Foot well and I feel there’s no way to climb out of it. It’s very painful to feel stuck knowing there is a way out, but I chose to stay stuck in my crap.
That man is not who I am.