Many years ago something personal.

Several years ago and I want to say probably like 2013 maybe 2014.  I was walking around on my driveway prayer walking. Actually I was giving God the what for. I had really been struggling with unwanted sexual behavior.  My drug of choice at that time was viewing pornography. Selfishness was right there with it, probably worse.

I asked the Lord a question. Why do I continue to struggle with the freedom I feel I’m supposed to be walking in?

I hear ” I have given you all the tools you need to walk in your victory. You choose not to use them.” I am thinking to myself, what tools? That would be Jesus. I learned yesterday that I have not invited Jesus into my darkness to speak to me. This was contrary to what I had originally thought.

I also learned that I still have anger issues even though I thought I had dealt with them. I also learned That I’m not as free as I thought I was. The anger issues have created a bubble around me. I think this bubble is normal, but there is more freedom outside of the bubble. Hope that makes sense. I have been this way for so long that it’s normal the way I am. But reality is, it’s not normal, it’s my perception of what’s normal. And that is what needs to change.   There has been a longing for a long time that there is something more that I am missing. I believe Holy Spirit just scratched the surface when I went on my sabbatical with the chaos and not paying attention to the signs revelations.

The Spirit being present doesn’t make you free.  The spirit being Lord in your life is what makes you free.  Damien Thompson

Freedom isn’t the absence of some thing, it’s the presence of someone. Bob Hamp.

2 Cor 3.17   The Lord and the Spirit are one; his Lordship sanctions our freedom. A freedom from rules chiseled in stone to the voice of our redeemed design echoing in our hearts.

Have a great day!