Meditation week 4 day 1
I was having a chat with a friend of mine the other day. I don’t remember what he said exactly but Holy Spirit brought the wound back. The wound was growing up in school and always being picked last. It didn’t matter what it was I was always picked last. I remember in the 7th grade trying out for track. I was the new kid and I was fast I was a sprinter. But they didn’t need want any more sprinters they wanted distance runners. They didn’t even want to see me run I was mad and I was hurt and I quit. I saw it, they were going to pick me last anyway. I quit before they could.
Morning meditation the screens.
The first screen showed me all the times I got picked last.
Second screen showed me what happened just recently and how I was reacting out of my wound (11/2022)
When the third screen came up Jesus just looked at me and said I love you and I will always pick you first, then I hear who cares if you get picked last, somebody has to get picked last. Just because you got picked last doesn’t reflect who you are in me.
I had something not said to me last November and I made a decision based on what I felt I was hearing from Holy Spirit. What has been revealed now is that I reacted out of my wound.
It was never Holy Spirit it was just my own hurt.
2023 has been a big year for me. I have learned so much and Holy Spirit has touched me in such a big way.
I let what was not said, matter more than what matters the most. I did not realize that I wanted to be in control and I wasn’t.
Sovereign Love Has touched me this year in a way that I’ve never been touched. Sovereign Love gave me another opportunity and I shined.
Will there be more opportunities? I dont know, But God is Good.
I got the scripture about 4:30 this morning didn’t make sense until after my meditation.
Ephesians 4. 13 The purpose of these ministry gifts is to present everyone on par and in oneness of faith; believing exactly what the Son of God believes and knowing accurately what he knows concerning us. Standing face-to-face in equal stature to the measure of the 1completeness of Christ. (The word, 1pleroma, means a life filled to the brim with Christ, like a freight ship carrying its cargo.)
Matthew 6.6 