I got squeezed

I am on the third week of heart physics, but felt like this morning I needed to go to week four. This morning was about my two grandkids that I had last week. We got our grandkids unexpectedly last Saturday. Five and two are there ages Amari and Jael. It breaks my heart to say this but my grade for the week that I gave myself was a “C” I asked my wife for a no BS assessment on how I did she gave me a “C” and gave me a “D” for my participation in helping her with them. Reliving last week and Listening to my thoughts and emotions this morning was painful. Last week I did not even come close to living my life to the fullest. It was like I changed into a different person.

I got squeezed last week and there wasn’t much Jesus coming out of me. What did come out of me was jealousy and selfishness. I did have some very good moments with them, but they should have all been good moments.

What is not permissible in heaven is not permissible on Earth.

I am not sure where the selfishness and jealousy started in my life. What I’m trying to say is, I’m not sure there was an actual event that created this. but moving forward I will write a new belief on my heart.

Dear Lord, this day moving forward I am the best Pepaw to my grandkids. I treat my grandchildren with dignity and respect. I love them, honor them and treat them the way I would like to be treated. I am selfless and giving. I am joyfull!. I am always present. I enjoy and treasure the moments that I have with them. I live my life to the fullest. Amen!

They grow up so fast.

I have put the stick down and looking forward to the next time the next opportunity I get with my grandchildren. I don’t want to teach them how to be selfish but I want to teach them how to love.

Colossians 1.13 He rescued us from the 1dominion of darkness (the sense-ruled world, dominated by the law of performance) and relocated us into the kingdom where the love of his Son rules. (Darkness is not a force, it is the absence of light. [See Ephesians 4:18] A darkened understanding veiled the truth of our redeemed design from us. 2 Corinthians 4:4. What “empowered” darkness was the lie that we believed about ourselves. The word, 1exousia, sometimes translated authority, is from ek, origin or source, and eimi, I am. Thus, I was confused about who I am until the day that I heard and understood the grace of God in truth, as in a mirror. See 2 Corinthians 3:18, John 1:12.)

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