It has been no secret over the years that I have struggled with How my parents have treated me
Without going into details there has been a lot of rejection over the years. I never really got the attaboy’s or good job or we’re proud of you from either one of my parents. Over the last probably six or seven years I’m starting to get the little I love yous and I’m proud of you. They just never really felt sincere. Most likely that’s due to my own filters. My phone conversations with my parents are always very short it just seems like. There’s really not a lot to talk about. And it’s been that way for as long as I can remember.
Over the years I’ve come to realize that my parents are who they are and I cannot change them. I can only change myself. When I came to that realization, the way I view my parents changed.
Yesterday I felt like giving my mom a call she’s 81 and we actually had one of the longest phone conversations we’ve had in years. 20 minutes long that’s a big deal. In the middle of our conversation out of the blue she said
“Kevin I just want to tell you how proud I am of the man that you become and who you are”
That broke me. I’ve just started weeping . It was so sincere that it had to be Holy Spirit
Ephesians 6:1-3 (ESV) Children and Parents
1 Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right. 2 “Honor your father and mother” (this is the first commandment with a promise), 3 “that it may go well with you and that you may live long in the land.”
There was so much healing in what my mom said.. It’s really hard to explain
Matthew 6.6 