It has been three weeks since I broke my leg. My life, my daily routine has been completely shaken up and I don’t like it. Yesterday, I was complaining to the lord about all of this mess and I hear “what if you had lost your leg completely then how would you be?” The first thing that came to mind was I would be pissed and then thinking about all of the things I wouldn’t get to do. That really put things in perspective. I really have it pretty good compared to a lot of people who are suffering through whatever circumstance they are in. I have to say that right now I feel somewhat disconnected from the Lord. Every day I pray, but I feel my heart is not in it. I spend time in the word but feel disconnected from Him. I know that He says “draw near to me and I will draw near to you.” This is absolutely true; I think I am just going through the motions. (I really hate that phrase) Below is a quote that really resonated in my spirit this morning along with the passage from Psalm 5:2-3 (NLT)
2 Listen to my cry for help, my King and my God,
for I pray to no one but you.
3 Listen to my voice in the morning, Lord.
Each morning I bring my requests to you and wait expectantly.
God wants us to stop understanding in the way we have understood and get into the place He wants us to get into, i.e., He wants us to know how to rely on Him. Oswald Chambers
So as I was writing this, I hear this passage in my mind “you were running the race so well, who stopped you? Here is what it says in Galatians 5:7-8 (AMP)
7 You were running the race nobly. Who has interfered in (hindered and stopped you from) your heeding and following the Truth? 8 This [evil] persuasion is not from Him Who called you [Who invited you to freedom in Christ]. Now that I am processing everything that I have written, have realized that when I journal it slows me down long enough to hear what He is showing me. Thank You Jesus!
Have you slowed down long enough to listen to what He is saying to you? Are you journaling?