The landscape owner

3 days ago I wrote a post about how the Lord showed me that I had been carrying unforgiveness for a man from 27 years ago.

While driving down the road.  I’m just talking to the Lord about that and then he says what about the landscape owner from the Texas Panhandle?

I think to myself you have got to be freaking kidding me.

What about him?

You haven’t forgiven him either. Yes I have. There I go again arguing with the almighty knowing what I heard was true.

You see just last week I had the thought that if I received a communication that either he or his wife or his best friend passed away that I wouldn’t be able to go to the funeral because I would not want to face any of them because of what happened. You know, the shame the anger the embarrassment of walking off the job. I remember thinking to myself this is not good, something’s got to change. It just amazes me sometimes when the truth is right in front of you, you don’t even see it.

 The truth was in front of Pilate and he didn’t even see it.  

³⁸ Pilate looked at Jesus and said, “What is truth?” As silence filled the room……….John 18.38

In 2019 he treated me very badly on a kitchen remodel that I did for him and I was so upset I walked away from the job and left $7,000 on the table. I was furious at this man and his wife.

This is a man who I worked for from 1981 to 1984 and 88 and 89 as well. He taught me so much about landscaping, about life, and the detail that I have when it comes to my jobs. I owe so much to this guy I could never pay him back. But I’ll let $7,000 come between us and so I’m through with that.

I have reached out to him but he is on vacation but now everything has shifted in my heart again. I made a decision and I have now forgiven him and his wife and am walking in peace.

Do what you have to do, stop living in the prison that you created.

It’s hard to love well when you have anger and unforgiveness towards someone