This just happened after my post about forgiveness. Love your enemies.
I felt 4 weeks ago that it was time to go through heart physics again. It’s been rough. I enter each session expecting to hear from the Lord, but I either don’t or I’m not listening. Today, though, I heard loud and clear.
My daughter married the man of her dreams. He ended up being a dream crusher. 16 months ago, he told her that since she refused to become the woman, that he needed her to be, I’m leaving you. So he left her with a four-year-old and a 2 year old and does not pay child support. I have been so freaking angry at this man for what he did to my daughter and my grandkids. Watching my daughter struggle with making ends meet holding down two jobs raising a 4 year old and a 2 year old.
I believed I hid it well.
I have had very bad thoughts. Thoughts that I cannot share. And then 3 weeks ago he leaves the country. We don’t know if he’ll be back I’m sure he will.
This morning, I wrote a post for my blog about forgiveness. After I finished my post, I did week four, day seven of heart physics last day.
It wasn’t at all about what was on the screens it’s about what was said. Holy Spirit says you write a post about forgiveness, but you hate him. I said no I don’t!” And then I hear this.
Oh really?
Right then, I knew I was busted. I have hated this man, and I don’t want to hate any more, so I forgave him, and I prayed for him to come back and be a father to his children.
I remember being so proud that I didn’t have unforgiveness towards him. That I wasn’t bitter. I would tell people no, I’m good. I mean, he’s forgiven. I was just lying to myself, but this morning, I have been set free.
Matthew 5:43-44
43 “You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor and hate your enemy. ‘ 44 But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45 that you may be children of your Father in heaven.
When does a deceived person know he’s been deceived?
Lord, when he stands before you on Judgment Day, please forgive him for what he did to my daughter and my family. I pray for strength, courage, and honor for this man that he would become a son. That he would love you.
Philippians 2:3-5 (ESV) 3 Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. 4 Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others. 5 Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus,
Matthew 6.6 