Isa 60:19-20
The sun shall be no more
your light by day, nor for brightness shall the moon. give you light; but the Lord will be your everlasting light, and your God will be your glory. 20 Your sun shall no more go down, nor your moon withdraw itself; for the Lord will be your everlasting light, and your days of mourning shall be ended.
Be encouraged your days of mourning are coming to an end. Focus on the light, focus on Him. I am not sure what you are personally grieving, that’s between you and the Lord.
Trust
Let today be your spiritual act of worship.
As Lieutenant Commander Worf says on Star Trek First Contact.
“Perhaps today is a good day to die!”
Matthew 6.6 